February 2, 2010
I am 45. English, and about to be sworn in as a joint citizen into USA. I have lived over here for almost 20 years, all my adult life. In this time I have come to live and re-live this question of 'who am I?' and 'what am I here to do?' It should be a no brainer in some regards...look at what you are good at, what your passions are, where you see injustices and ACT. However, right now, I don't have a home. I came back to USA October 09 for a 10 day visit and now, it's Feb 2010, and I'm still here. Now I no longer feel like I have a permanent home-of-my-own in either the States of UK. It's a tough one. For me, I seem to have become somewhat static. This is so UNLIKE me! My temperament is more inclined towards action, pro-action, networking and connecting. I like DOING things. It's almost like a living death for me to be inactive. And I'm ashamed to feel boredom. That's not my style. I have a voice and it seems to have gone quiet...where's it gone?