New Year or New Fear
Got wishes for my dreams to come true…got mails with happy faces that wished for my everlasting happiness….got surprise calls from my friends to wish me Happy New Year. But still the real feeling and joy of the NEW YEAR did not touch my heart. And I wondered why? We do nothing special on this day, so there was nothing much to miss except going to temple, eating with family members and wishing each other. People make plans for the year ahead along with new resolutions which I believe people hardly follow. Everything seems almost new.
No wonder like every country, Nepal has a range of development, a high range actually. People in one part still live in Stone Age; hunting animals and cooking in earthen stove while people in other parts struggle to attain the “First World Lifestyle”. May be that’s why I am confused whether to celebrate new year over the happiness of discovery of new, cheap and environmentally car or to celebrate new year over the happiness for the first sight of vehicle on the road in a remote part of Nepal.
Lately I don’t find the word “new” that friendly. It’s not that it has become too old to be used but it rekindles a fear in my heart; a fear that has been entrenched in my heart since our country Nepal was given a new face; a republican country. We got new leaders to make new forms of old promises. Maoist got the full power after years of struggle. We got new culture of politics (uncrowning of the King) and a new form of government.
We had new division in ONE country. We got new problems of flooding due to breakage of a dam at far-west region. We got new reasons of disputes among the once collaborative parties. The parties that were accommodative while drawing new pictures of Nepal became the biggest enemies of each other before framing the picture. We got new faces in new parties. Many parties were formed with many aims of indirectly dividing people and their thoughts. We got a new problem of electricity cut-off. Once the schedule was 20 hours per day. Can you even imagine living without electricity for 20 hours in 24 hours? Isn’t it ironic for a country known for world’s second largest resource of water to suffer from load shedding? To add, few days ago, as I was reading a post in one of my friends’ blog, I found a new problem; effects of climate change. Recently, there was a fire in the national parks on the areas near Tibet. From historical to perilous problems, Nepal has faced a lot in 2008. We already have so many problems to tackle with and again GLOBAL WARMING?
After I thought of all these things, I realized may be the fear in my heart of new problems arising every other second overlapped the joy of celebrating the New Year. It is obvious to be pessimistic when one thinks of all these problems. But then again, I thought may be the tides of 2008 would open people’s eyes for the ruins they have caused. As a new hope arose in my heart, may be with every sunrise, a new voice would rise to wake people from their deep sleep. And then again, I love the word NEW.