A Father’s Stubborn Daughter!
“You rocked,” she said, admiring me for daring to be myself when we went to watch the cricket match.
It was Saturday last week when we, 24 Afghan students traveled from Chittagong to Dhaka to cheer and support our Afghan players. And yes, Afghanistan did win the match and with all our hard work to travel for 6-7 hours and enthusiasm to cheer our players and show them that they are not alone, we did get what we wanted; Afghanistan won the match.
But for me all these greatness and happiness in being one’s own self also had its own "perks".
Today I called my mom and told her cheerfully that I’ve been selected to go to Italy to attend a great class for the summer. She wished me luck in my life.
She told me that she had just returned from a lunch gathering with relatives and that everybody had seen me on TV but that I WAS NOT WEARING A SCARF. “Don’t do it again,” and the call was disconnected as the balance finished.
Once again, it left me in the position I was about a year ago. Back then, I got messages to not wander around naked and telling me, “be a bit humanlike, you are a girl.” It was all because I had a picture on my profile where I was not wearing a scarf and suddenly it became everybody’s business; from my brother to my father’s cousin’s son and to my neighbors.
I wonder why is it so difficult for people to let it be my damn choice if I do cover this damn head or not. Every single person has got hair on their heads. It is not about wearing or not wearing a scarf or covering my hair. It is me as person having a choice in what is MINE.
I know how much pain I am putting my mother into by being so stubborn. Everyone bothers her and blames her for not raising me well. It is not her who did not raise me well. It is just that I’ve opened my eyes to a different world.
This damn head is going to keep thinking and keep fighting for what it deserves, a choice.
How about I shave my head?
I want to shave my head!
Message to my mom: I love you and I am sorry that’s why I’ll try again. But, as always a father’s daughter I am and have got a very stubborn head.