Believe in yourself
I feel like the past few months and years have not been real. I am a gentle and very caring person that feels a lot of empathy and kindness for others.
I have experienced emotional abuse on different levels. I suffered anorexia a few years back, not knowing there were other avenues I could have taken to save myself from suffering in such a debilitating way. I didn't think anyone would understand or listen and would think I was going crazy. I felt very alone and I left my marriage 8 years ago as hard as it was with 2 toddlers but I knew there could be a better life on the other side. It's been a battle due to the other person being very controlling and mindless for the needs and normal life's requirements of respecting others to myself being someone that takes everyone into consideration not ever having selfish motives in mind. My children have been in the midst of the battles and the battles should have been unnecessary but a requirement for myself to seek justice and fairness for everyone involved.
My last involvement with emotional abuse has had huge effects but through self education, speaking with many people and learning more about myself and what's important to bring more happiness to my life I maintained the strength to beat the torment of his own inner demons directed towards me, that were his not mine. I left after only a few months. The behaviour I witnessed was like nothing I had ever experienced and totally bizarre to mention. From twisting stories, to having accounts accessed, to turning the blame, to lying, trying to set me up to make me look like I was a mother that was going insane and needed help, just to name a few. I was living with a total nut infested person that baffled me to no end. From extended contact from him without further contact from me he continued after separation. I've learnt to become a strong woman, totally underestimated for the strength and inner wisdom I hold for the greater and better good of living life without letting the belittling lies and degrading abuse get the better of us. Teaching the one of my two sons I have living with me to be strong and to believe in yourself even if no one else alive on the planet believed you. It is the only way to achieve inner peace and to not give in or to any longer answer or be in contact with those that seek to bring you down and their drive in claiming to achieve - gaining narcissistic supply for his own inner demons.
I'd like to help others and would love to talk with other women in similar positions and also interested in those strong women achieving great things in the world for the well being of others.