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' I'M NOT AFRAID OF DYING . . .

Me, Feigning Courage While Nauseated

. . . I JUST DON'T WANT TO BE THERE WHEN IT HAPPENS ! " - Woody Allen

Dear One & All,

I'm sharing that with you mostly because I think it's such a wonderful quote. But also maybe because I'm at a point where I think about my mortality a great deal and I guess I share Woody Allen's sentiments. Do you?

I certainly have been aware of wanting to make sure I do certain things while I still have lots of vitality. Two years ago, because my beloved parents were dying and so my mortality seemed to be looming, too, and I am afraid of heights (acrophobic) and afraid of falling from a great height, (bathophobic) in addition to having inner ear vertigo, I decided that I should face my fears and go skydiving. As I left the airplane, falling for 60 seconds at 120 miles per hour, which was for me an incredibly violent sensation, two words flashed through my head: "Never again!"

Sometimes I believe that the incredible courage demonstrated by our Correspondents is rather like skydiving; an enormous leap of faith, to say the least. And yet, as in my case, the landing is sometimes the easiest, gentlest part. It's getting started, committing to getting in the small, bumpy airplane with the side door that stays open during take-off and is still open during the flight, and having the blind courage, even when we we're terribly weary and sorrowful, to lean way over and fall out the side of the airplane a mile up, that takes intestinal fortitude. Or desperation. It doesn't really matter which.

I would hope I'd have the courage to keep on, working for the betterment of the world, in the face of despair, as you do. Jumping out of a perfectly good airplane (as the old joke says) is easy compared to the work you each are doing -- and you, too, of course, Dear Mentors ! -- I believe that with all my heart.

Wishing You Comfort and Joy,

Sarah

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Sarah-Thank you for sharing your experience! I find my passion for rockclimbing to have so many parallels to life, as you did in the skydiving experience. It's always the first move, whether going up or rapelling down, that can be the scariest and where many are frozen and unable to move. To trust the rope and the belyer (who is holding that rope), knowing that your very life is in their hands. To trust yourself, that training and decision have brought you to this place, and that you do indeed posess the knowlege and skill to beautifully proceed.

May each of you be reminded that you have the training and skills to not only commit, but to proceed, trusting that all will come together, and the view from the top will be extraordinary!

Let us Hope together-
Michelle
aka: Cali gal

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@CaliGalMichelle
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Rockclimbing, WOW

Hi, Michelle!

You are a truly brave soul indeed, not to mention trusting, and I value your comments and analogies about trust! Crucial on so many levels, and certainly in this, our process of Mentor & Correspondent.

So, Amen to TRUST and THE FIRST STEPS, and Thank you!

- Sarah

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