Yet to Realize
Like other teenager my age, I haven’t found the real thing I really wanted to attain my vague goal of having that stable job, a beautiful house and my own car.
I often get scared of taking a step to things I thought is going to be great (and actually wanted to join) but my shy attitude holds me back. I have gone to a few rejections from peers in college. I’ve been alone in my entire freshman year because I feel like I was different. I was invisible to them. They can only see me whenever they need something- papers whenever we have quizzes. I lack self-esteem, I admit that and I want to overcome it.
I’m aware that this hinders me to do great things and even to have fun with my youth. And possibly be the reason that I won’t be that woman I want my parents to be proud of. I don’t want to become a burden to anybody just because I still have my childish attitude with me. What more can I do? I’m still 17 and as much as I wanted to take part-time job, I can’t. I just wanted to see if working would help me grow more mature.
I hadn’t proved anything to everybody for them to see that I could be useful. But I was hoping that joining this online community would help me gain confidence in me. Though people here don’t personally see each other I feel the warm welcome and appreciation. It’s summer vacation in our country and I don’t want to waste my time with all just playing, sleeping and roaming around and I don’t even take any lesson from it. I want to learn as much as possible. I want to improve so that when school comes again, I will have my guts to face the fears that I could let myself join without worrying in every activities.
Not all women suffer from those very violent inhumane actions, little do some know that there are also other factors that hinder women to empower themselves. I know how it feels to be a loner so I don’t want others would feel that way. I’d like to help in the least way I can. By even atleast talking to them. Often times, women lack courage to be out of their comfort zones. Upon aiding them to have confidence already help to make them enter into important discussions to improve themselves. In that way, I believe I didn’t just helped myself gain self-esteem but others also. I have the voice and I want everybody to know that I’m not just a powerless teen that would just give up after some failures. I want to believe that ‘It will only take a step of courage to have a mile of success.’
My school have this motto :”Men and Women for Others.” I wanted to be part of the advocacy that helps others and with this opportunity. I’ve read these statements in this group page: “I have a vision and I need support to realize it. I want space to collaborate and make a difference.” It makes me feel good about joining this group.