"Sometimes more than 'beginning' something new , it is more important how you 'end' things
While all beginnings are good
It is your 'endings'
That show who you are
And the kind of feelings you want to carry along with you."
Today I was faced with a peculiar situation. One of those rare times when you are caught at a cross road, and circumstances make you choose one thing over another, one side over another and you know you look bad. Bad to people you leave behind, the side you let go and the thing you give up for another. Then you brace yourself and for a fraction of a second, you believe, if you made a choice that is good for your future then you need not explain and cajole people of the choices you made. I lived in that illusion for exactly 24 hours!!
And then it dawned on me that I had been wrong. It is absolutely wrong to make choices without informing the ones who are affected by it. Most of all, it is wrong to not engage them in your thoughts and just why you chose another way. I knew then what I had to do so I fled through the front door, and called out to my house maid to not make lunch for me, I'd be late. I had some important thing to do.
It took immense self control to appease my discomfort facing the situation now but I tried to remember the good things of the past and that these people I would meet were humans too. I met everyone who was affected by my choice. I put forth the course of events, my own thoughts, the reason that favored my decision and I pleaded for understanding. It is hard to choose a thing to do when you also have the option of not doing it at all
I wasn't prepared for what happened in the next few minutes. I was released by these very people from my guilt and received blessings and friendship. They accepted my decision.
"Life is long enough, perhaps one day, we will work together again!", one of them told me reassuringly.
I walked with a spring in my steps. I learnt a very important lesson today. The lesson was 'ending' something well. Making peace at every step.