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Just because I was a woman...

One morning when I got up
I witnessed
It had broken into pieces... the dream which I had never seen
I was feeling very weak
fatigued, tired, desolated and wretched...
My heart was sinking...
My eyes were empty...
A never ending season of fall had striken my life
And
I was lying there just like the pale leaf
getting crushed
and crumpled by the trespassers ...
(N.B. Beware! trespassers are allowed to walk through and mash our lives with the sarcasm of their shoes!!!)
I was not even allowed to make that
crumpling sound of objection...
I was drinking the wine of humiliation...
Yet was not allowed to be intoxicated...
I was alive but was not allowed to live...
My heart was aching..........
My soul was bleeding..........
yet not allowed to be nursed
I was beaten to death by the words...
As far... as wide... as the gaze can go
till the horizon of hope...
There was no sign of a healing touch
or a soothing caress...
Only thing present were
the piercing looks with hatred...
dancing victoriously to the tunes of their vanity...
And
it ripped me apart...
it tore me into pieces...
But
still could not kill me...
And
one morning
out of those torn pieces of mine...
a new 'me' was born
I got up that morning and
collected all the tinier bits
of the broken dream which i had never seen...
I withdrew all the courages that i had
wiped all my tears...
peeled all the layers of desolation one by one...
looked at the larger version of life
to bring out that one smile in one of those millions of sad faces
to spread the warmth of compassion unconditionally
and my eyes started smiling
I got the purpose of my life
Their vanity lost its way
My pride won with accolades
with love
with peace
And
It made my day...
and made my life...

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Comments

Mukut's picture

Wow

This is powerful and touching.

Keep sharing more.

much love,

Mukut Ray

nusrat1977's picture

Thanks Mukut

Thanks dear.
At times words heal us!
luv and hugs
Nusrat

Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved. ..........Hellen Keller

MESSA's picture

emotional

The emotions this raise is wonderful.

it takes one up to a level and give on high and high and keeps moving higher!

it's wonderful
i enjoy it!

Ghnadi un jour a dit, tout finira bien par s'arranger, et si tout ne s'arrange pas, ce que ce n'est pas encore la fin. Femme, garde espoir!!!!

Ghandi once said it will all get well at the end, and if it doesn't get well, then it is not yet the end.
Wo

nusrat1977's picture

Thank you Messa

Being brave and then remaining brave is hard... But life warrants us and teaches us the lesson.
Thank you for stopping by.
regards
Nusrat

Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved. ..........Hellen Keller

Sharontina's picture

Great

Dear Nusrat,

This is so powerful and emotional.

Thanks. Keep sharing.

Love.

Merlin Sharontina

nusrat1977's picture

Thank you

Thank you for stopping by and you kind words. I feel so humbled and touched to read them.
Luv
Nusrat

Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved. ..........Hellen Keller

Greengirl's picture

Inspiring

You made so much sense Nusrat and reminded me that there is light at the end of every dark tunnel. I am motivated to keep forging her ahead. Tough time sure passes away and tough people keep advancing.Please keep sharing, I am deeply impressed.

Thoughtfully,

Olanike

nusrat1977's picture

Thanks dear

Yes Olanike, you are right. There is light at the end of every dark tunnel. It is just that at times the tunnel seems to be very long that we lose patience. But we have to remind ourselves that we are strong and we can make a difference collectively. What we have lost, we will not let others lose. We can create reasons to bring a smile in their life. Most of the times, its a better healing ointment to our own wounds.
Thanks for your very kind words.
Nusrat

Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved. ..........Hellen Keller

Pushpa Achanta's picture

Stirring

Dear Nusrat,

Your meaningful and moving words will inspire and touch many. Keep penning your thoughts and feelings.

Love,
Pushpa

nusrat1977's picture

Thank you

Thanks so much Pushpa for your encouraging words.
Love
Nusrat

Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved. ..........Hellen Keller

Zuhal Ahmed's picture

Wonderful

It’s such a pleasure to read Just because I was a woman, I am so impressed by your precocious tenacity, passion and expansive worldview. I would like to let you know that I enjoyed and I am so thrilled and touched. Thank very much,

Please keep the good job

Zuhal Ahmed
Norwegian Chuch Aid
South and West Darfur
skype: Zuhal Ahmed Abakar Fadl

nusrat1977's picture

I am touched too...

Thank you Dear Zuhal for your kind words. I am touched to read all the inspiring thoughts and encouraging expressions. It means a lot to me.
Thank you.
Love
Nusrat

Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved. ..........Hellen Keller

SSD's picture

Thank you !

Dear Nusrat,

I am speechless....stunning and yet piercing poem, one that tugs the heart all at once !

A significant contribution here at world pulse !

Keep penning, dost !

Cheers,
Shaheen

Cheers,
Shaheen

nusrat1977's picture

Thanks Shaheen

Dear Shaheen,
Thank you so much for all your kind words. I am so much touched to read all of them. I never expected my words can touch other hearts as well.
Thanks dear.
Love
Nusrat

Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved. ..........Hellen Keller

j_cambra's picture

You got me thinking...

Thank you for your creative and thought provoking story. "A dream which I had never seen". This is a very powerful and impactful line. I have read it multiple times trying to comprehend it in my own mind and what you meant by it. My best guess translation is life without a purpose. I can see the underlying pain that comes without a purpose.

What do you think your dream would have been then vs. now? I am glad you have found your "self" and are enjoying life. You are lucky to have found what you were looking for. Please continue to share your words and thoughts as they can change the way people think or view the world.

Sincerely,
Justin Cambra
Tracy, California

nusrat1977's picture

You got me thinking too...

Dear Justin,
Thank you very much for your thoughtful comments. You are right 'A dream which I had never seen' is so striking statement...In fact when you asked me "what would have your dream vs now", it got me thinking too...what would have been my condition...i dont know, may be I would have forgotten the meaning of 'dream'...may be I would have lost my confidence that I can also dream...I am clueless...
Yes, I gathered myself, recollected myself, rebuilt myself again...But every now and then I still lose my strength and my courage with which I started...
Thank you
best regards
Nusrat

Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved. ..........Hellen Keller

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