I just have my words, I just my writings.....no more weapons for my country....
When I was coming here I had so many things to say I did not where I was going to begin. Being in my day to day life in my country and specially doing the work I do in my very small NGO, I have to solve so many small and big things that at some point life starts to be so difficult that I have never realize of that until I took the plane.
My last days back home were under tremendous stress. The final words of my friends were to defend yourself you can not be a romantic woman, living as if you were living in another planet, YOU HAVE TO TAKE A GUN.....TIENES QUE ARMARTE!!!!And I cried so hard I think I had no more tears....my kid has been suffering so much that he even took a gun his dad gave him as a game....but all know that thats how all start. As a game.
War is not a game. Has never been. Is something we must learnt from history, but something we need to avoid anywhere. I see life from a different perspective as I know we are nature and we are an animal specie. How ever knowing that, as specie we do not need to kill anyone or anything to survive. We might need or face many obstacles to survive, but as we become to the top specie in the food chain there is no need to kill anything unless you are going to eat it for survival reasons, as well as hunters had to do in the forest or the rural areas for food, no the ones that hunt for pleasure. There is no pleasure in that.
So.....coming here I have realized why I will never EVER TAKE A GUN. That is not the example I will for my son Nicolas, Thats not the example I will give the new generations. Because I have my words, my writings, my poetry and even my resilience to be able to continue in my romantic way of living my life in this planet. We will find peace through peace not doing the war. We will find peace if we are the peace not if we are the war. We will live in peace if we become the peace we want to have....there are no many options to take. And I took the one I know for sure its taking me to peace. In fact, I am already there. It is quite moment. Its white but sometimes comes into a brighter light. It is also dark and beautiful. It is with no sounds but also with beautiful music. With its own slowly movement. It is possible. It is real. Right now I can feel it while I am having a very strong cup of coffee in Washington in our last day of the tour. IT IS BEYOND!!! As we can create peace we will found peace in everything, in each smile, in people in the train, in the bus, in the stoplight, at home, in our family, in our kids, in our friends, in our partners, in our selves, in our bodies and in our soul.....because thats the source. As God to me, it is inside us. And will only come out if we had it inside. We are the peace we need. I feel it right now when I close my eyes and looked outside to see if it is outside...but it is right here inside my heart.
Since I was 6 months old my parents took me to camp with brother Juan. I can not remember that part. My mother does and she might have enjoy it going with his husband for those adventure trips with him. We did as well. For me it change my whole life perspective. Since I was 6 years old I can remember everything. Being at Rio Claro a very well known place right now but inhospitable by that time. I remember watching for many instants the floor of the river as it is marble that you can still see in this days as one of the most beautiful things over the earth. I remember I told my friends and they did not believed me. I remember so many things. Thankfully my brain just remember the good parts. Or maybe I never have a bad part in my childhood, but that is how it is. I remember getting so close to trees as if they were alive. Because I knew they were. And I remember getting so close to a grasshopper that I even became one. And I would pretend I was so small that I could see life from its eyes and I could jump almost anywhere...and I did.
Yesterday being at the White House I could remember that little girl and I had to rub my eyes to be sure I was not dreaming. It was real. My voice was hear. My thought were heard. My romantic way of thinking was hear at the most impressive house anyone could be at. The White. The house were many things get cooked and where global changes can happen. A house where right now might be going to difficulties as most of the houses but one where we can let our seeds inside as I am sure they will grow in people hearts there and they will take care of them and cultivate them as a precious thing. I know yesterday they hear stories they might have never heard in that way before from the voices of ourselves. I know and I can feel it now my thoughts went direct into their hearts and that my recommendation of no more money for our government to buy weapons or pesticides was something Obama will hear from his wife one night. No more weapons at all. In amy part. Lets move to another chapter of this world in my country. We are ready to move on. We are going to a new life and countries are still doing things at if we were in another century. We need new things. New strategies. To solve conflict and post conflict in the planet. Climate change is global not local. Displacement occurs in local levels but is global. Aids affects individuals but went global. Displacement happens locally but now became global. Or drug war is not my war. It is not my country war. It is not even South Americas war or Americas war. Ii is our planet war and we will have to deal with it as a global problem with REAL SOLUTIONS. Cocaine is not the only product coming the coca leaves which are sacred for our indigenas people. It is a sacred plant with so many good things inside it that we need to find a way out of this war to find real things for our people down there. Coca cookies, cakes, tea, matte, sodas, bread, creams for the body, plasters ( I had once an accident with 3 broken ribs in the amazon and if it was not for the "emplasto" I had the pain might had kill me). So....there is not time to wait....our land has no time to loose...as each day that the drug business is going many land is being destroyed, many people is being displaced, many women are being the target for this war we had had for so long. We had enough. It is enough. It has to stop. Finish. Finito. Se acabó.
And it will only be that way if we think globally and make changes at the local levels. Lets talk. Lets write. Lets know other our perspectives. And we will find real answers for everything.
Wi will. She will (thanks Intel for saying this so loud). And we all will. And we can. But we have to co it. Take your step. Move forward. Take a deep breath and change your life. Make your first step out of any bad thing and magic will happen. You might have changed the world.
I did. I know I have done it every day. And I am so happy and so proud and so strong. I only have my voice, my writings and my clean heart to keep going. And I will.