sometimes i dont want to be strong
by makanaka | October 17, 2011 at 6:36 AM
My heart is heavy laden, and I am feeling so down cast,
my eyes are swollen and red because I cried all night long,
you come over to me and you tell me “girl you have to be strong.
” Who told you I want to be stong?”
Who told you I am strong?
I wish you could just get into the core of my bones
and you will realise that though I am still standing
My bones crumbled a long time ago
And the person you see standing is the part that still thinks that I am strong
But the bigger part of me just wants to crumble like my bones
I want to break down and cry my lungs out
Cry not alone and hoping that no one notices
But cry out loud and show the world that I am hurting inside
Show the world that I am human
And show the world that I am broken
I stand there comforting everyone else
Telling them that it is all going to be ok
But I am battling in my own skin, because I know its not ok
Everyone looks at me and oh how they marvel
They look at me from the outside never from the inside
Because though I stand tall and look all put together
I wish I could just crumble like my bones
Crumble into a million peices and cry out louYes I stand tall and yess I am smilling
but inside I am crying my back slouched with all of life’s burdens
You can look and marvel, you can always come to me if you need someone
But as you are doing all this just know that sometimes I do not want to be strong
I just want to break down and cry
Comments
Hey sis, I feel you on this.
Hey sis, I feel you on this. Sometimes, we just want to crumble like a bone and cry our lungs out but we have to be strong for others, strong for eachother, strong for ourselves and when inevitably, we crumble, lets be the shoulder for one another to cry on...
in the cracks
Someone once told me something very wise I shall pass to you.
'It is only when we break, when our soul shatters, that we can find strength. For when the breaks heal the bond that then joins the broken pieces is stronger than it ever was. We only become strong when we have first been broken.'
From that she was trying to say to me that one day my greatest strength would come from the weaknesses that have had to heal in the past.
I think it is fine not be strong all the time - fragility and vulnerability are what gives us humanity and empathy with which we can change the world.
As you cry inside (or out) know that it is ok - it is what makes us human.
Much love
Laura
Laura Cook
www.lauracookphotography.net
'Seeing through new eyes'
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...I feel you there! Thank you for speaking my heart. And give yourself permission to go hide, crumble, then rise up again, stronger than before.
Peace-
Michelle
Peace and Hope-
Michelle