Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned
I function my best when I am scorned, when I am told that I cannot do something. When people would prefer that I give up and go back home. It is then that I fight my strongest battles, even if they aren’t the best ones to fight. When the walls go down in the back of my mind and I will happily aggravate everyone in the world so that I can do what it is that I want to do.
It is these actions that get me the most attention and success of all the things I have done. And yet I am always so afraid to start. I am so afraid of being laughed at, of people thinking that I am useless and have nothing significant to say.
So I find my greatest barriers are those that stop me from even trying, and looking at where to start. Although my confidence is building, and my capacity to ignore the voice inside me that laughs at what I do is growing I still feel hesitant as to where to start. What topic should I battle first? What medium will achieve the most change? Who should I choose to lead and where should we go?
I remain uncertain as to who my community is, where I can find them and what they are interested in. For this tools such as World Pulse and even Facebook may be able to provide me with some answers. These forums provide such a wealth of information from who is doing what to who is leading the charge against some issues. I believe a great threat to many world changing endeavours is that we all work towards a goal but not as one team, as such many smaller groups all have one goal but are not joining their power together. I believe that by helping these different groups to combine and work together towards one goal greater challenges can be overcome and people such as myself may be able to find their communities.
I have been somewhat afraid of trying and starting out even though once I do I know the snowball will help me get more heavily involved with my community. It will also help change happen in the world.
Through this network I feel more connected to a community, more able to broadly problem solve and no doubt with the occasional negative (and posiive) nudge from the outside world I will get sufficiently riled to work with others to make great changes.
Thankyou to those who are strengthening my online community. I feel more able than ever.