The same way a minister cannot conduct a wedding without a groom is the same way I cannot speak about miracles without acknowledging God.
In my twenty four years the grim reaper has silently knocked on my door twice. His black wool cloak flapping against the strong winds, inside his skeletal frame creaking like the familiar sound of grandma’s kitchen door that needs oiling and in his bony hand the sharp blade of his scythe glistening in the moonlight.
‘Tap Tap Tap!’
The sound constantly rings in my head and I cower behind a veil of uncertainty, ‘Lord, has my time come?’ I ask. I am wakened by the sound of Mozart’s Eich Kleine Nachtmusik playing on the national radio, how could music so sweet be played in between bouts of cold-blooded hatred?
At the age of eight one of the bloodiest genocides of the twentieth century ripped fiercely through Rwanda, and all I had as a reminder of the good life was my beloved plastic doll, Tinnie. The angry slash on her stomach created by my brother who wanted to understand why she peed when we gave her water mirrored the fear that gripped mine. Why was my life spared when around me almost a million people were butchered like fattened goats on Christmas Day?
A few months later the Lake Tanganyika threatened to swallow me whole as I vehemently tried to prove to myself and to my sisters that I could swim. I fought her so hard her wave pushed me back to the shore. I won both times but those are not my miracles.
My miracle today is that even after going through those terrifying experiences, I can look upon life with rose-tinted glasses. The upheavals that were my life after the genocide are what make my life beautiful: I can still see riches where there is poverty, good in an evil world, joy through tears, a family in a broken down society, selfless acts in a selfish world but most importantly I can see God in a faithless world.
Miracles should not just be seen as moments in life that go beyond our human comprehension; just because you have not seen it before, do not know the answer or do not have the formula, does not mean it is out of this world.
And so I live my life in the comfort of God’s presence.