Shakey First Steps on PulseWire
by Lisa | September 5, 2008 at 10:55 AM
Self-doubt. How do you escape it? I feel like it was planted in me as a girl and reinforced as I grew into a woman. When I first wrote my "about me" the white box seemed so daunting! What do I want others to know about me? Could I reveal too much? And if I wrote too little was I hiding who I am? It took me several attempts to dig into my heart and present myself to you.
Then it was time to write a journal entry...even scarier. What do I have to share? Who cares what I think? Girls' and women's thoughts, knowledge and experiences have been so devalued in my family, my community, my education, and my culture that I've really had to fight for space and have the courage to value my own voice. Yesterday, it was reassuring to hear about the challenges a few other members of PulseWire faced with introducing themselves and starting conversations with our community. Thank you Wendy, Lindsay, Jenna, and Debra! You all are brave, caring, and insightful women. I can't wait to read more of your posts and learn more from you!
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Self-doubt is suffocating
Lisa,
Sharing your experience with self-doubt really resonated with me. I too, have been plagued by self-doubt. When I encounter women, who are seeping with confidence, I am always a envious. How did they become like that?
Was it there parenting? Or, did they have to create their own confidence? I imagine the answers would be across the board, and yes, many would claim they experience self-doubt.
I have to remind myself every day just how paralyzing my own self-doubt is,and falling on my face doesn't have to be the end of the world. Besides, confidence, gets one so much farther in this world.
One of the things that I really appreciated about yesterday is that we began the journey of creating a safe space among us "huggers." A safe space goes a very long way in being productive for ourselves, as well as, others. I think it would be a wonderful idea for "huggers" to meet every couple of months to touch base and reconnect in person with our local community; however, I know time is a commodity for many of us.
I'm very much looking forward to learning how to best navigate Pulsewire, inside and out, so I can be of use to others!
Hey!
so great to hear you share your heart with the world - blaze that trail, girl! you inspire me with your courage, make it easier for me to do the same.
LOVE this site. LOVE your pic.
Sara Karl
www.youtube.com/sarakarl