Community Update

World Pulse Toolkits Available!

At World Pulse, we recognize the need for ongoing learning—for you and for your community! Our toolkits are all available here.

We are especially excited to share our signature Citizen Journalism and Digital Empowerment Curriculum. Start learning today!

The path to learning

One of the things I find most difficult about this experience is just talking about myself. I'm practically trained to shut my own emotions, to avoid the sad experiences of my life. So, the materials on this last week, I got deeply. There is a part of me resists, however, to follow these guidelines, the part of me that wants to follow a rationality against which, however, I revealed long time ago because I understood that it doesn't represented me and doesn't offer me a true fulfillment.
Definitely I have been several losses that have made me identify with female identity. When the text recommends to seeking an extended family, I'm a little scary, but I understand that the extended family is not necessarily the biological family because it can be composed by the brilliant and beautiful women who want a change in the world. Although I love my own family, I feel that it is resonating, deep, dark voices want me to stay where I am, and they don't want I change, triumph or threaten the establishment.
My community looks like as a place full of mistakes. Continually, I can appreciate what is wrong in many of the things we say or think. While many women are lost in trying to fit in models that have been preconceived as beauty parameters, others are lost in poverty, despair or pain to see how the violence takes away their family and opportunities . Thus, although there are women "successful" I see them very lost, unable to throw echoes of stereotypes.
In my case I have already told you that I always wanted to be a writer. There is a man who studied with me at school and was probably under the same influences as me and now he is a career writer. I can not get to that step. And I wonder where are the differences between him and me and I must admit that there is a marked difference by the fact that he is a man and I woman, but still the real meanings and implications of this fact is beyond me.
It is also true that I accepted much more job responsibilities at this moment of my life. I accepted, too, to make way for other women, but then I wonder, since my work is so absorbing, if I betrayed my own desires to achieve successes that, in order to account, is also mediocre.
On Being a correspondant, I have to confess that I have the secret hope obtain feminine wisdom that sometimes I have seen, but I know I still resist, by fear and attachment to the past. I want to see if I can learn from the other a little courage, rebellion and also get insights into what happens with me and how to change myself and the community to which I belong.

Comments

Airyn Lentija's picture

Woman,SOAR!

Dear Marinu,

Like you,most of the women around the world have hunting past.Make those experience as your source of strength.Do not doubt yourself to fly and make a difference in the society.Remember,you are a woman,courageous.

Fight the fears and untie the knot that binds you from the dark moments of the past.Search for the light Marinu,be inspired and get inspired! Soar like a phoenix!

God bless you.

Airyn Lentija-Sloan

http://airynspoetry.blospot.com

suzanna of c's picture

Coming out of shadows..

Marinu,

What you write is your passion and desire. This is good. In my own experience, when I write because I need to write, with no attachment to what happens to it, it is good writing. So keep it up and you may or may not find yourself with you male counterpart, but you will learn. I identify with all your ideas. The difficulty of leaving traditional models and family, the pain of understanding violence against woman, the desire the express and not believe my abilities are acceptable. But let us keep trying. After all, it is probably the process and not the goal that truely counts.

Susan

Singmila Shimrah's picture

Dear Marinu You've already

Dear Marinu

You've already begun the journey!! you won't be scared any longer and the society will not trap you forever..the fact that you've started writing in this forum..you've began and never turn back..take this as an opportunity and go forth..by the end of it, you'll be totally different from what it used to be... keep writing what's inside of you that the world should know...spread ur wings and fly..soar high in the sky...do not let the society or fear trap u inside...Best

Singmi

jbaljko's picture

Path to Learning

Hi Marinu,
I admire your courage in expressing where you're feeling resistance in fully coming into your female identity. Cultural, community, and family pressures are often difficult to overcome because they are so embedded in how we act and react to situations. Now that you recognize these hurdles, perhaps you'll be better able to tune into your feminine wisdom and shift your perspective to bring about the change you seek. Keep writing. It will be a good exercise to tap into this new voice.
Jenn

"The secret of happiness is freedom,
and the secret of freedom, courage."
-Thucydides, ancient Greek historian & author

Magazine »

Read global coverage through women's eyes

Letters to a Better World

Letters to a Better World

Community »

Connect with women on the ground worldwide

shazia @ shiree's picture

BANGLADESH: Finding Fatima

Campaigns »

Be heard at influential forums

WWW: Women Weave the Web

WWW: Women Weave the Web

Programs »

Help us train women citizen journalists

World Pulse Voices of Our Future

World Pulse Voices of Our Future

Blog »

Read the latest from World Pulse headquarters

The Women of World Pulse LIVE: Meet Olanike

The Women of World Pulse LIVE: Meet Olanike

Partners »

Join forces with our wide network of partners

Nobel Women's Initiative

Nobel Women's Initiative