To my birth father
The loss you feel makes me sad. It makes me feel worse knowing only I can fill it, but won't. I feel the loss too, and only you could fill it too, but I won't let you. Because I would rather have an empty space than a space filled with verbal assaults, conflict and pain. I thank you for my life, and I'm so sorry that you never really knew how to love.
Your "terrorist loving idiot" daughter.
PS I will leave the door open, just a crack, in case one day you learn