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Introducing myself and my journal: A Battle to Save my Daughter Soul

About Me:
This journal is dedicated to my beautiful daughter Andreayna Marte & To all the young womyn in the Fuerza/Power program whom I hae been with for the past ten years who taught me how not to loose hope and reflected back to me an inner strength and power that you can not learn or read about anywhere!

I am going to take this opportunity to introduce myself by using a letter I wrote to my daughter.

Dear Eayna,

You are 14 yrs old now and no matter how much I prepared myself, no matter how ready I thought I was, there was never a chance on this earth that I would have been prepared for this year or the years that lay ahead for me and you.

I have dedicated my life’s work to creating a space for young womyn to create possibilities for them selves, to heal, to empower and transform the way they think, the critically think about the information they learn and create choices and alternatives to the world they live in.

Its been seven years since I made that agreement with myself and no body more than you and your brother have felt the affects of my lifes work. For the past seven years, I have broken down, broken through, broken down, broken through again and again and again…I have been the best mom and the worst mom, I have been here and there and no where, I have been happy and depressed, angry and in rage. I have broken promises and or never made any because I couldn’t keep them. I have taken days off to see your Christmas shows and take care of you after school and then
there where times you didn’t see me at all. (written 5 years ago)

Now you are 19, and I thought the worst was behind us but at 14 it had just begun. Espe told me one day by the river that this journey of motherhood with you was not about you at all, but about me. As I cried with her on Riverside for the millionth time about wanting to protect you from the world, she told me I had just started a long battle to save your soul. Hence, the name of the journal.

Well she was right, for the past 5 years I have battled you, the world & the contradictions I live of having you at such a young age of 15 and raising myself and you, two young women in such a violent world . However, at the end of the journey it was not you that was saved it was me!

That battle I was waging was not about you at all, as i fought with you I fought myself , it was like looking in the mirror at myself, my mistakes, my pain, my regrets, my past. In raising you I got the opporuntity to raise myself again.

Thankyou for this opporunity to be your mom, for trusting me as your mother, for your unconditional love, for not judging me and for standing with me through this journey of self love. We both have transformed into beautiful women!

In bold Rebirth

Your Mom, DEE

My Passions:
TO create another world by being peace, healing and transformation in everything that I do.

My Challenges:
Living the contradications and letting go of abandonment issues as they show up.

My Vision for the Future:
We walk one with the earth and women once again step into their power of being the powerful goddesses that they are without the violence.

My Areas of Expertise:
Self healing, young women empowerment, spirituality as a tool of resistance and social justice.

Comments

olutosin's picture

welcome my darling!

This is our worldpulse, the online family, please be free to post to your journal, be free to be yourself and be free to discuss, this is a safe environment for women and men who want to report issues affecting themselves and the world around them, you are always free to pour out your mind because here we are all the same.

Transformation if for us all, and I am on a journey for transformation training too, so we are the same, before we can transform others, I believe we must be transformed first, that is why I am on this journey. I really love your voice.
Welcome my dear and lots of love to your loved ones.

Olutosin Oladosu Adebowale
Founder/Project Coordinator
Star of Hope Transformation Centre
512 Road
F Close
Festac Town
Lagos-Nigeria

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tainadelsol's picture

thankyou and hello

oh my god i cant believe im talking to another women so far away on the same journey, i am excited to embark on this online community and sisterhood with all of you.
love DEE

In Bold Rebirth
DEE

Fatima Waziri's picture

Hey there! Welcome to

Hey there! Welcome to PulseWire!

It’s so exciting having you with us, I am sure you will have a fabulous time with your new online friends as well as find this to be a very positive experience. I encourage you to take advantage of the numerous resources and features available through our vibrant online community.
Welcome again to our global community and I look forward to hearing more from you here on PulseWire!

Peace!
Fatima

mags c's picture

Welcome and thank you

Hi Dee
I can so relate to what you are saying and i am grateful for your honesty and expression of the trails that young single mothers face in abid to raise a well balanced child in a worl that is full of so many contradictions and rapid dissaperance of family support systems. Keep writing and sharing, i personlly look forward to more articles from you.

Mags

aimeeknight's picture

VOF

You did it! Congratulations my dear friend!

Aimee Knight

"One shoe can change a life" ~ Cinderella

tainadelsol's picture

thankyou aimeee...

amiee thankyou for cheering me on. I am looking forward to learning, expressing and healing.

love dee

In Bold Rebirth
DEE

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